Yeah, only I would fuck up something like this. A perfectly fine friendship and she doesn't even want to have anything to do with me. I don't know. Am I overreacting? I'm not sure. It's actually not like I haven't liked her for years and then that happened. Oh wait. That's EXACTLY what went down. MY FUCKING BAD.
WHY I CAN'T BE WANTED FOR ONCE IN MY FUCKING LIFE? JUST ONE GODDAMN GIRL HAVING ANY MORE THAN PLATONIC ATTRACTION TO ME?! BECAUSE IT ISN'T VERY FUCKING FAIR TO HAVE TO CHOOSE WHICH FRIENDS I WANT TO HANG OUT WITH BASED ON IF I CAN HANDLE THEM FLIRTING AND CUDDLING WHEN WE WATCH FUCKING MOVIES WHILE THEY KEEP EACH OTHER WARM AND THE ONLY THING KEEPING ME WARM IS MY FUCKING BODY FAT. IT SEEMS TO ALL DEPEND ON WHO WANTS TO HANG OUT WITH ME.