Wednesday, October 26, 2011

Lab Notes TWO


Alright, so I can not remember when I have ever been this lucky before in my life. You are my best friend, and I cannot thank you enough for the encouraging words and the metaphorical slaps to the face I need every once in a while (or every day) to bring me back to earth. I have so much fun whenever we hang out. Hell, I even have fun when we are talking on IM. #DR4EVR


You have stayed up past 4 AM just talking to me, making sure I don't harm myself. That takes an insane amount of patience and love, which I thank you greatly for. Your smile lights up my life, and I believe in you with all of my might. Thank you so much for being there for me, and I hope things go better for you.


We have been friends for a few years, and I'm glad that we have gotten to hang out a lot over the past year and a half. Homecoming was a lot of fun and I can't thank you enough. Thanks for always being awesome, and for always having your door open when I need it.


Holy shit. I had no idea you were this strong. Your strength continues to amaze me each and every day. I had no idea of the hardships that you go through. You have gone through so much these past few months, and your cheerful attitude throughout this all amazes me. I love you so much, and we will finally watch some History Channel together one day.


I know we haven't been as tight lately, and I apologize for being stupid. Thanks for hanging out with me on my birthday when I was being a drama queen. You are awesome, as is your collection of Sonic Screwdrivers (and the amount of money you spend on them).


That comment made my life, and I'm glad to know you still like my writing. You are still one of the most beautiful girls I've ever met. You and he are perfect together, and I wish you many more years to come.


My AIM buddy. I love how you message me after I post a depressing status. We still need to get coffee together. I love you, and I know you are getting into the college you want it.


It's almost your birthday, and despite your unwillingness to turn 18, believe me, it is a bunch of fun. We will celebrate one way or another. Your photography is awesome as is your ear for music.


Remember that time you were the new kid in my English class and you were shy, but now we just rule this fucking school? Yeah me too. I can't wait for musical, we're going to be awesome.


"That guy just gave you a sassy look." I am so glad we have become tight over the past few months. You are a fantastic writer and a fantastic friend. I wish you two the best of luck (even though you won't need it).

Freshmen in college.

Come back already. I miss you.

Tuesday, October 25, 2011

Six word stories (and three seven word stories)

I lost my mind and her affection.

And that's when I hated life.

The truth comes out in pieces.

Together we stand, united we fall.

People say I feel too much.

You remind me daily of feelings past.

I don't care if the world ends.

You don't realize how much that hurts.

Sunday, October 23, 2011

Shame on you for shaming me

Not lowering my guard again
What you did was sick and twisted
You completely ruined my zen
I was ready to go and then I missed it

You lured me close and lowered my guard
You led me to believe that I could trust you
You said I could call you and you gave me your card
Then you cut the power and sealed the door too

I called you for help
I couldn't get through
I suffocated and let out one final yelp
And you just laughed and walked out of view


You'd never know she was in pain
The way she flashed that smile
The way her eyes shone with compassion

She says she's defective
That she isn't anything special
That the other girls are much prettier

Her thoughts get too loud
She says I don't owe her anything
When I owe her the world

The one thing I regret
Is that I can't help
She tells me it's alright and smiles

You'd never know she was in pain

Saturday, October 22, 2011

Rays of Light

And when I thought I had been bested
By the devil and his minions
By the shadows that lurked
By the traps that I fell to
You saved me

You grabbed my arm and took me
You expelled the devil from my soul
Your voice frightened the darkness
You brought it to its knees
And you looked into my eyes

And the devil fled
Along with his thoughts
Along with the darkness
Along with his temptations
And you restored the light in me

Thursday, October 20, 2011

Ripped to Shreds

My soul has been consumed by darkness
I cannot fight the devil anymore
I have not been very truthful lately
I'm not alright

Wednesday, October 19, 2011


The shadows creep up on my body as I lay paralyzed
I am struggling with this demon inside of me so great that it has fallen many a man
The worst part about the demon is
The demon is me

I feel like the exit has been closed off
And the air is running out
I need to find the light
You are the light

The shadow has almost swallowed me
I stop struggling and I give up
The demon settles into its new host
This is who I am

Monday, October 17, 2011

Saturday, October 15, 2011

Sunday, October 9, 2011

The Trifecta

When I first saw you, I was taken capture by your beauty. Your eyes that shone as brightly as the sun, your infectious smile that lit up a room, a face that belonged to an angel. You have cared about me immensely and put up with my constant affection.

You told me that we could never be. My soul was crushed. My heart was broken. It hurt to look at you. A million different thoughts ran through my head when I read every single word you wrote. I wished I would have never told you those three infamous words-- "I love you".

We reconciled. We talk again. You have your soul mate. I am still looking for mine. I am fine with that. You care for me and I for you. I'll never stop loving you. On days when you feel the worst, remember me, because I'll remember you.

Saturday, October 8, 2011


You are the most extraordinary girl I've ever seen. You have a smile that could quell a storm, you have the face of an angel, you have the hair of the most beautiful queen, you have the body of a supermodel, you have the fingers of the most gentle, loving mother. You are my shining light in this dark storm called life.


I apologize to those of you who saw my last post. I was crying out for attention, and I apologize.

However, I am have contradicting feelings. I had one of the best times of my life last night and a fun time this morning, but I guess the lack of activity is boring me. I wish I had someone I could call up and hang out with them at anytime, but I don't have that.

Lately, I haven't been writing, and I've been using this blog more and more as a soapbox and a place for me to bitch, and that wasn't my intent. I am going to stop posting unless it is a piece of writing or something else I created.

Feel free to contact me though if you want to see what I'm up to.

Wednesday, October 5, 2011


I got a callback for musical, for the part that I wanted!


Sunday, October 2, 2011


I met quite possibly the nicest person on the face of the earth this afternoon.


Who has been leaving the comments on my blog recently? PLEASE tell me!

Just let me know, I will do nothing. I just want to know who the hell you are, you brighten up my day constantly.