Lists that keep running in my head

My Personal Flaws

Things to do

Things I wish I could do
Words I cannot say
Words I wish I had said
Ways to keep myself alive
Why I wasn’t picked
What I’ve done wrong
Things I cannot take back
Reasons for harm myself
Reasons to not harm myself
Do I smell bad?
Do I smell good?
Do I look good?
Is my fat showing?
How does my breath smell?
Am I being annoying?
Am I breathing loudly?
Am I as smart as any person in here?

Does anyone in here care about me?

Am I happy?

Why can't I do the things that will make me happy?

Why can't I take chances?